I am getting really sick of dealing with IF when it seems that no matter how hard we try we keep hitting road blocks. Though I know our road blocks are not as giant as others, they still suck.
I had my egg retreval yesterday. The numbers weren't quite as high as I would've liked. They were able to get 15 eggs out of the 20 follicles. This is definitely not horrible, but I wish it was higher. Because of low sperm count, the lab had to preform ICSI again (inserting sperm directly into egg). This should have about an 80% fertilization rate with "normal" sperm and eggs. Well I found out today only 9 out of the 15 eggs fertilized, or about 60% (how about those math skills?). I don't know if it is protocol or lack of confidence, but the clinic scheduled me for a three day transfer on Thursday. In order to not do this, I need 6 growing embryos. I'm totally petrified that this won't happen. If it doesn't, the clinic better be ready for a fight.
There is no way that I am going in and doing a 3dt again. It didn't work the first time, so I'm not doing it again. I don't care if only one embryo survives to Saturday, that is going to be transfer day. By doing a 3dt, I feel like we are all just going through the motions to get to negative result (the day before my birthday). I refuse to do that again, and I don't really care what the clinic has to say about it.
This is our last IVF with this clinic and our third (out of 6) chance, and I absolutely refuse to just throw it away. With such low numbers, something has to be wrong quality wise, even if the doctor doesn't believ it.
All I can hope is that the 9 embies that we have continue to grow strong. If they don't, the clinic better prepare to deal with stubborn hormonal me.
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