As Olivia is napping (yes she is actually napping and not in my arms!!), I was thinking about the last few years. This year I'm watching my lovely girl nap and waiting to give her her first Easter basket. Last year, I was pregnant and excited about all the possibilities the year could bring. The year before was a different story entirely.
We went to my aunt and uncle's to celebrate the holiday, even though neither Sean nor I felt like celebrating. We planned on missing the annual Easter egg hunt for the kids because I knew I couldn't take that. Well, that didn't work out as planned. As the kids went out to collect eggs, I broke down thinking that I might never get to see my child going on an egg hunt. Sean and I then spent the rest of the holiday at home and eating McDonalds (the only food we could find).
It's memories like this that allow me to really enjoy every possible second with my little girl. Even when I'm trying to figure out exactly why she has decided not to sleep anymore (come one baby girl you sleep through the night twice last week why did you need to wake up 4 times last night??), I think about the feelings of loss and longing I felt for all those years and I'm thankful that I have her to wake me up.
Since the nap is over (a whole 40 minutes in the pack n play...score!!), I will wrap this up. I promise to update on all her successes in the next few weeks when she turns 6 months! How is that even possible? Until all then I want you all to have a great holiday. For my friends who are still struggling to come to the end of their IF journey, it will happen and when it does it will be the best thing that ever happened to you.
